It has been a while since I wrote on my blog. I sat down with the intent to continue Izac's and I's love story. I at least want to get it finished up until we got married, although we had some crazy times on our honeymoon that would make a good story too. Anyways, while I was wanting to post an entry to get that finished up, I got distracted.
I picked up my journal to read and remind myself of the next entry for 'our love story', and the first thing I read said this: "School started for me on Monday, I was really frustrated the whole day, wondering if I was majoring in the right thing or not. For some reason it was really bothering me....I was just frustrated... and cried a bit. It really wan't a terrible day I just wasn't excited about my classes."
It reminded me of how I have been feeling lately. I really only have two regrets from my past. One is that I didn't major in what I loved, Horticulture, and the other is that I didn't do better at Nationals for Nursery Landscape with the FFA. If I could change those two things right now I probably honestly would.
Practical Joslyn though, had to have a way to make money in something that was (and seemed) reliable. It made sense in my head that Health Care Administration would be able to support me financially comfortably. I don't and didn't mind paperwork (that is basically what that degree is...) and I was relatively good at it, so the practical side won and I have a degree in Health Care Administration (I don't regret having a degree in any way shape or form, I just wish it was in something I loved!).
My other rationalization was that I could open a garden nursery without a horticulture degree, that one day I could still do it on the side for fun. Which I still believe I can, I just know how much more I would be ahead if I had done all the research and learning while in college. My degree at one point, was even Horticulture and I changed it... Hindsight wishes I wasn't so practical sometimes. If I really loved it, and I did and do, I would have been able to support myself financially and comfortably.
This post isn't saying how my hopes and dreams for owning a nursery are destroyed because I didn't get my major in Horticulture. I still plan on owning a nursery someday. This post is just saying to Major in or do what you really love. Being practical is good to some extent but as long as you are smart in doing what you love it will never hurt you.
