Monday Izac and I went to lunch and then played volley ball for family home evening. After, Izac came to my apartment and we laid a blanket out on the grass to do our homework together. Part of my homework was to watch a movie called 'Mountain of the Lord'. We both hurried to accomplish our other assignments so that we could watch it together. We kind of laid side by side as we watched the movie on one of our laptop computers.
I must have been rather tired, because soon I felt a nudge from Izac awaking me from a very comfortable sleep. I woke up, slightly embarrassed at falling asleep during a moving that I was supposed to watch. He told me he felt my body relax and figured that I had fallen asleep. The movie was really good and the company was even better!
At this time I was in a class that was all about studying cases. Cases that involved things liked the death penalty, purchasing a home, and pornography. It seemed to be all about opinions and learning how to discuss and talk about what we would do in those situations. The purpose of the class seemed to be to really get us think about our values; what we would do and where we stood in some of the so called 'grey areas'. That Tuesday our case was about a girl who had done the 'naughty'. The question we were supposed to answer was whether or not she needed to tell her fiance if she had completely repented of it.
I am of the opinion that she would need to tell him. I was a virgin all the way to my date of marriage, but I had dated other guys before Izac. I had need, at times, to utilize the Savior's wonderful gift of the Atonement and repent of my sins. I hated my sins and regretted them every minute. Still do. But I learned from them. Those mistakes made me who I was and made me all the more attracted to this man because he had not ever kissed a girl. While I regret those sins, I also feel that I have been forgiven by my Lord. I knew that I would feel a lot better and honest if I told Izac. I planned on doing so but I wanted to wait a couple of months. I wanted to wait in hopes that he would like me enough by then to be able to look pass my past mistakes. I really didn't want to lose him! We had a lot in common and I had a blast with him every time we were together.
That day (Tuesday) we went to devotional together, he studied while I typed notes at work for a few hours. After I worked we made some dinner together. I don't even know how it came up...
But it did.
And luckily no one else was in the apartment...
I got the picture at: http://socalrpm.files.wordpress.com/2010/10/the-mountain-of-the-lord.png
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